Today
Just one of those days that automatically feels like a day wasted
Not too much to look forward to
Nothing exciting happening, friends are at prom, other friends are busy and I’m just sitting here, I’ll turn on the PS3 in a moment, but generally things are starting to get routine again, I’m feeling once again like I’m alone, but I at least know there are people who care for me. I’d suppose you can only expect so much when you spend a majoirty of your day locked away in your bedroom.
Do barriers blocking my long-lasting happiness actually exist, or am I making them all up? I need to get out, I need something new, this dullness is really getting to me. And yet, what’s there to do? How can I get out of this room and enjoy myself without money? Sure, I could go outside, take a walk, but what fun is that alone?
Where are the people called friends that are supposed to be there for you always? I’m fortunate enough to truly have 2 or 3 of those, but other than that, it’s just me. Left to care for myself, and make myself happy. There’s only so much a person can do alone, I think I’ve always said that…
Either way, the chaos of my mind, the intricacies of my life and relationships with the people around me, it’s all getting to me right about now. Guess I’m experiencing some kind of burn out, but at least TagWorld’s back, not quite the same as it used to be but perhaps it’ll give some kind of path to more friends, random strangers who are similar to me, or perhaps it’ll do nothing at all.
The distance between the world and I, I have to say it’s killing me today, I have to say…that I’m not sure about anything right now, I ave to say…I could just be going crazy.
but that’s what’s beautiful about it.
I’m only human and nobody’s perfect. No one has a perfect life. Everyone needs someone to help take care of them. Everyone has negative traits, and everyone has somethig that can make them beautiful.
–MyronJ.
Tags: dull, boring, pointless, rambling, unhappy, unhappiness, tired, repetitive, worn, jaded.
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