Because it all made perfect sense
Today was pretty interesting as a whole, or really more of tonight.
Anyways, earlier, I talked to a former best friend for the first time in ages, we had small talk. It was cool, she’s pretty funny. It’s interesting how much we don’t know each other now, seems to be a recurring trend of best friends from middle school….
But guess that’s because we’re growing up.
Meanwhile, there was some drama with 2 of my best friends, I guess I sorta messed up in a way. Had some poor word choice and they ended up upset, one of them went through my text messages then told the other to. Basically, one of them annoyed me quite quickly, and it made me remember how unpleasant being around the 2 of them usually is. Nothing against either of them personally, it’s more of a the way she acts around him/towards him type thing. So it all got blown entirely out of proportion and she saw it as being two faced (which I still don’t really see it as two-faced considering I never really said anything and then contradicted it, I just said some things that displeased some people I like) basically, she would’ve preferred I offend them both about something that I didn’t personally view as worth offending anyone as opposed to letting it go and just handling it my own way by talking to my other closest friend.
But whatever, not a big deal.
Then there’s //newgirl.. who has been absolutely fantastic today, we basically reached an agreement that we wouldn’t do anything to hurt each other. and I know that you can’t really make agreements like that, they aren’t entirely realistic in the long run, BUT it was a sweet gesture. The two of us were both a little hesitant to the whole actually completely trusting the other thing, but I think now we should be fine. I’ve definitely decided that I wasn’t going to be so cautious about her, because I’d rather leap in and be happy than just sit around worrying all the time. I mean, she’s a sweet girl, she actually amazed me today, everything she said just made me smile. Sure, we’re a little cheesy, sure I’ve liked lots of girls. Sure, I’ve blogged about lots of girls.
But as far as the reality check side of things goes, I think she has the most potential, considering there’s one major thing she has that mostly everyone else has been lacking (including some ex-best friends) and that’s enough of a heart to fight for me. All of the others have just kinda been like “hey, let’s hide this”, or “hey, I can’t do this because ________ doesn’t approve” but she just says “Hey, I’m going to do it if I want to do it” and I love that about her, it’s such a major difference…and a pretty important one.
On top of that, I just see her as being really fun, I can see us just kind of doing whatever and enjoying ourselves, because she’s great to be around and I’m sure the more we’re around one another, the more pleasurable it will be. Just because there are a few things you don’t understand or notice about a person until you hang around them a lot, like their little intricacies. I’m definitely getting used to hers, and I’m sure she’s getting used to mine.
I can’t say we were “made for each other” or anything like that, just because if two people really can be, those 2 people are certainly not us.
But I can say I like her a lot, and she’s fantastic, and right now I honestly wouldn’t ask for anything more, but I don’t think I would settle for anything less. I mean the girl is truly great and she seems to care about me more than anyone else has so far (or rather more than any one else has shown)
As long as I’m happy with her, that’s all that matters. and I’m more than happy with her, I’m ecstatic, as long as she doesn’t end up doing something with another guy while we’re together (She’s really flirty, it’s just her personality, but I trust her) then I am completely satisfied. I just hope it lasts because I really don’t want anyone else right now. Of all the people that have won me over, she has certainly done a much better job than everyone else so far. The whole showing she cares thing goes a long way.
I <3 her.
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