Alright, I guess it’s probably been a couple days…Right now, it’s raining, I can here thunder, and I can see water drizzling down my window. I might go sit on the roof after I eat.  The rain can be pretty wonderful sometimes.  Especially since it’s so hot outside.

I don’t really have much to say, for once, I’m about speechless. Isn’t that amazing?  I guess I’m starting to mentally get back in the groove of simplicity.  I haven’t had any random tantrumy rants or whatever (that I can remember) because I’ve actually been happy, I have the greatest bunch of friends I have so far at any point in my life.  I weeded out the ones that were more trouble than they were worth, and then I moved on and found some great ones.

I think that’s fantastic, I have people I can share my mind with, and not just feel entirely awkward or whatever.  People who understand the general mechanics of my mind and think “Oh my gosh, Myron makes sense” and they view me as a real person.  It’s kinda creepy because they’re starting to get a damn good feel of when I’m upset or something, and honestly I kinda like it.

That’s what friends are supposed to be.  Most of the people I surround myself with as of late make me feel better about not only myself, but the world as a whole.  I’m not so concerned about trying to make everyone in the world be good people and think intelligently the way I think I do.

I don’t feel alone, I feel like I’m surrounded by people who think on just as high of a level as I do, even if their thoughts and opinions aren’t quite the same as me.  I know people who make sense, who care about other people, but understand things in life that I wish other people would understand.

I guess that’s why I used to blog, I just felt alone.  I needed people, I needed the world.  Is that strange?  I still do need people, but not in such a sense of desperation.  Now I understand that I can do you know, whatever.  and I truly believe that things can change if you try.  and I mean all things can change.  As long as people are willing to think intelligently.  and even if other people don’t, it doesn’t mean you should force yourself not to.

Hopefully you will see some more sensible, thought out posts in the near future.  Or some stories or something, I don’t know.  I’m feeling amazing.  But not elated.  Just kinda here.  But happy
I’ll be back here some time soon, haha probably next time I’m caught up by some crazy surge of emotion.

Today was pretty interesting as a whole, or really more of tonight.

Anyways, earlier, I talked to a former best friend for the first time in ages, we had small talk.  It was cool, she’s pretty funny.  It’s interesting how much we don’t know each other now, seems to be a recurring trend of best friends from middle school….

But guess that’s because we’re growing up.

Meanwhile, there was some drama with 2 of my best friends, I guess I sorta messed up in a way.  Had some poor word choice and they ended up upset, one of them went through my text messages then told the other to.  Basically, one of them annoyed me quite quickly, and it made me remember how unpleasant being around the 2 of them usually is.  Nothing against either of them personally, it’s more of a the way she acts around him/towards him type thing. So it all got blown entirely out of proportion and she saw it as being two faced (which I still don’t really see it as two-faced considering I never really said anything and then contradicted it, I just said some things that displeased some people I like) basically, she would’ve preferred I offend them both about something that I didn’t personally view as worth offending anyone as opposed to letting it go and just handling it my own way by talking to my other closest friend.

But whatever, not a big deal.

Then there’s //newgirl.. who has been absolutely fantastic today, we basically reached an agreement that we wouldn’t do anything to hurt each other.  and I know that you can’t really make agreements like that, they aren’t entirely realistic in the long run, BUT it was a sweet gesture.  The two of us were both a little hesitant to the whole actually completely trusting the other thing, but I think now we should be fine.  I’ve definitely decided that I wasn’t going to be so cautious about her, because I’d rather leap in and be happy than just sit around worrying all the time.  I mean, she’s a sweet girl, she actually amazed me today, everything she said just made me smile.  Sure, we’re a little cheesy, sure I’ve liked lots of girls. Sure, I’ve blogged about lots of girls.

But as far as the reality check side of things goes, I think she has the most potential, considering there’s one major thing she has that mostly everyone else has been lacking (including some ex-best friends) and that’s enough of a heart to fight for me.  All of the others have just kinda been like “hey, let’s hide this”, or “hey, I can’t do this because ________ doesn’t approve” but she just says “Hey, I’m going to do it if I want to do it” and I love that about her, it’s such a major difference…and a pretty important one.

On top of that, I just see her as being really fun, I can see us just kind of doing whatever and enjoying ourselves, because she’s great to be around and I’m sure the more we’re around one another, the more pleasurable it will be.  Just because there are a few things you don’t understand or notice about a person until you hang around them a lot, like their little intricacies.  I’m definitely getting used to hers, and I’m sure she’s getting used to mine.

I can’t say we were “made for each other” or anything like that, just because if two people really can be, those 2 people are certainly not us.

But I can say I like her a lot, and she’s fantastic, and right now I honestly wouldn’t ask for anything more, but I don’t think I would settle for anything less.  I mean the girl is truly great and she seems to care about me more than anyone else has so far (or rather more than any one else has shown)

As long as I’m happy with her, that’s all that matters.  and I’m more than happy with her, I’m ecstatic, as long as she doesn’t end up doing something with another guy while we’re together (She’s really flirty, it’s just her personality, but I trust her) then I am completely satisfied.  I just hope it lasts because I really don’t want anyone else right now.  Of all the people that have won me over, she has certainly done a much better job than everyone else so far.  The whole showing she cares thing goes a long way.

I <3 her.

Last weekend, I totally flipped out, don’t even know exactly what was wrong with me.  I just got fed up of people acting like idiots and tools.  Next thing I know, I’m trying to sever ties with some people, which made complete sense to me.  I guess lol.

But I really was pissed and annoyed by everything, just because what’s the point of acting like a moron all the time?  Or acting like a child, especially when life is so much more pleasurable when you grow up.  You feel so much more in control, and control is what we all need to feel strong.

I’ve kept my feelings on this one pretty silent for a while, I keep losing hope and faith in humanity, then different stuff will come and bring it back.  But yeah, I just wanted to blog…last night I noticed there was a 15 day blogless gap in my life.

Scary. Goodness, and you guys didn’t even check to see if I was alive…tsk tsk tsk.  Maybe I’ll start mobile blogging a little more often to prevent that from happening too.  I dunno.

Anyways, just thought I’d share that, ciao!

My goodness, haven’t blogged in ages.  It’s surprising I even know how to start.  I guess maybe I should begin by saying I’ve missed it, I’ve missed you guys.  Basically, I’ve been on an unannounced hiatus…for pretty pointless reasons.

I’ve wanted to blog like crazy for a good while now, there’s just been so much going on.  But when I upgraded to the Flock 2.0 beta, ctrl+shift+b (the former blog editor shortcut) was also assigned as the bookmark organizer shortcut, so whenever I tried to press it it brought up the bookmark organizer….which really just annoyed the crap out of me, and I can hardly blog without using that shortcut…It’s just so natural nowadays

But tonight, with a bit of indirect inspiration from a certain little girl, I decided to quit being lazy and take the couple extra clicks.  Especially since I’ve needed it.  There has been a freaking lot going on, and honestly most of it is so far past that I can’t even fill you in.

I’ll give you a few highlights:

I’ve been well, I guess you could say seeing, the girl I just mentioned, and I’ve found that I like her noticeably more each day.  It started out as a “hey, she’s kinda cool” type thing, and the progression since then has just been pretty….ferocious. (I like that word).  But wow, I’m not really sure what to do about that, I’m honestly a little afraid, because it seems like she can be a bit of a heart breaker, but I trust her, she seems to care about me.

Which is more than I can say for some others, the difference between her and the other girls I’ve liked is she’s clearly willing to take chances and do whatever, she doesn’t act like she’s terrified or worried about anything.  As a matter of fact, she pretty much encourages me to not worry and whatever.  My only gripe is she technically has a boyfriend, but I’m trusting her when she says they’re going to stop being together.

I know, not very responsible of me, but hey, I heart her, she’s a great girl, and it seems like she’d do anything for me, and on top of that she’s actually really nice, and playful, and…she’s just really a lot of things I want, not perfect by any means…but I still think she’s up there, regardless of what anyone around me may think.

As long as she doesn’t do anything to hurt me, I’m more than happy
then there is my current best friend, her boyfriend got upset towards me about something that happened months ago, he mentioned how he couldn’t trust me because of some of my more irresponsible moments.  That one pissed me off, you guys missed all the Myron rage.  It was epic.  It was ferocious.  It was like GRRRRR. If I was a wolf, I would have ripped out his freaking jugular…BUT I’m not a wolf, so yeah….

and her, hmmm….She’s been in and out of town (and my life?) all Summer, I saw her Monday though, and we hung out a bit so that was cool.  She’s still trying to look out for me, make sure I’m happy

Ah, Our Lady Peace, How I still lovest thee….

Basically, life’s been life…Not the greatest thing ever, not the worst, but I guess it’s been pretty damn good.  I’m back at home with my family of friends, making plans for the future…band camp starts next week…..

But as of right now, my white brother and I are planning on moving into my garage some time in the distant near future, so hopefully that’ll work out because it could be fun.

Anyways, I’m going to start blogging again more, promise.  I’ll quit being so lazy.

Haha, with love.

Myron.

P.S. //newgirl (as she will furtheron be called until future notice) told me about a previous relation she had today.  Not too sure how I feel about that one.  It’s a little weird….but entirely irrelevant, and I’m not going to freak about something irrelevant.  It just makes me wonder…perhaps I’ll talk with her about it later.  Either way, she’s a great girl, the past doesn’t matter as long as it stays behind….In this case anyways, I think.  I’m thinking she has potential as being FANTASTIC in the future if neither one of us does anything to hurt the other, because she’s certainly already great now. Her positive qualities are pretty close to what I’ve been looking for

As loud as hell, a ringing bell…

I’ve definitely been here too long and dad wants to stay longer, I’m thinking selfish. Hopefully others who oppose the idea will speak up, but I doubt it.

Mom’s too cowardly to broadcast her opinion. She would rather live simply and oppressed, I suppose that is what aging truly does to you. But whatever I guess. The way I see it, I’mvold enough, responsible enough, and mature enough that I should have been able to make the decision not to come on my own. But whatever.

On top of that, I’m rather pissed. I can’t tell what I dislike more, being alone, or being around people. I can’t stand being surrounded by tools, but by myself all I can do is think and realize how much of a waste this trip has been.

I finished reading Life As We Knew It today…that leaves PS3 for tomorrow…no way in hell I am staying another day after that…I don’t like limited Rock Band where I have to do quiet vocals and can only otherwise play guitar by myself.

I don’t like being unable to express myself without family making absurd assumptions and judgements

Speaking of Rock Band, kinda angered by the Rock Band 2 timed 360 exclusive thing…but whatever, at least my DLC will work whenever I finally get the game…

Goodness I need someone to hold me right now. Or really I just need to be around real people, I need stimulation. I’ve got another stress/depression headache…or really I’m almost positive I’m just tired and dehydrated…haven’t had water in a while…..

My band director needs to e-mail me back.

This whole stream of consciousness thing is going well aside from the whole unhappiness thing….

I just want to get home…as much as I hate Gadsen, and although I pity most people there, at least there are people who care for me there, people who know I exist, some of them even miss me supposedly…I haven’t hugged anyone since Thursday, thats too long…I need to take a certain girl into my arms and crush her with my love…

This whole trip I haven’t even glimpsed a person my age and for once I didn’t spend a majority of my time in the hotel room while everyone else was gone. Just proof I don’t need to be here…

It’s stuff like this that causes me to despise my parents, how can they force me to go out of state when they don’t even control what hours I leave or return when we’re at home? I’m fucking old enough to take care of myself for a few days. In fact I did it LAST YEAR before I was driving for three days…

I wish dad wasn’t such a tool…I wish he thought logically and about more than his own desires…

Call me a hypocrite for only thinking about me, but what can I say? I’m one of an increasingly diminishing (oxymoron) number of people whose intellect I respect.

Anyways, head’s killing me. I’m gonna sleep.

CUT MY WINGS OFF/SUFFOCATE ME

So, it’s definitely the second day of this ever so dreaded trip. I would have to say that as a whole today was much worse than yesterday. I’m feeling a little down, but thats probably just due to being tired. Its more of an anger than a depression.

A majority of the day was spent with siblings and their children…fun for about an hour and after that its pretty tedious. especially considering I woke up at about 9:30. I’m not too into that.

I also discovered an odd affection for those Weezer DLC tracks I hated so much a few days ago. Doolittle love remains strong.

Think I’ll spend most of tomorrow in the hotel room.

Meanwhile I’m off to sleep, I’m too tired for this

Not sure when the last time I posted was, I’m sure its been a while. I’m getting a little irresponsible with this whole posting thing. Not quite as much motivation as I used to have.

But that is a non-issue. Right now I’m laying in bed in a hotel room, listening to Doolittle since I am loving the album as Rock Band DLC, I want to get more familiar with it, each track is a little miracle to me. I’ll eventually have to check out more by The Pixies. Great band

Meanwhile, the trip…eh, I managed to sleep through 95% of the car ride, no joke. That was from about 9 Friday night to about 12:30 this afternoon where we finally reached the hotel here…since then I have been killing time playing PS3 and text messaging. It’s about 12:30 now so I’ve killed 12 hours that way…we’re leaving Tuesday night

So that means I just need to survive tomorrow (Sunday) and Monday. I would think I can handle this with the aid of Raven (I named my PS3 that a few weeks ago) and Rock Band. Just wish I had the balls to sing in the hotel..or if I just had a Rock Band drumset…playing just guitar can get unfulfilling. I keep creating new characters, I have guitarists/bassists but no drummers. Massive grr. Its fine though. IF my band director compromises I’ll have a job soon anyway.

I need a good RPG preferably something I’ve never played…or Grandia II, that was the greatest game ever.

Oh, and I got an inspiring comment earlier about how cool people will stop by and read and I won’t be alone.

Oddly enough, between Doolittle and this post I don’t feel alone at all right now. I do kinda wish I had a sweetheart here though, and some juice…thats what I’ve been in the mood for lately: love and juice. Odd? I would think so. But I haven’t had juice in days, and girls have been either difficult or confusing.

Not too sure when or where I should end this post. Don’t really think I have much more to say but I’m not quite ready to sleep yet. Mainly because I don’t want to wake up without a pretty face to make me smile. Or even some I love you messages would probably do the job but I’m not expecting any of those.

As of late, I’m incredibly stressed, not too sure why. I guess just life. Sleep deprivation and spending time with friends has been both a problem and solution I guess. Depends on who I’m with and why I haven’t slept. Basically I need some massive happy pills until my mind gets back on track. I’m to the point that I can’t even get comfortable. But at least I have my PS3 with me. I really need to buy something….generally new stuff makes me feel better for a while

I think it gives hope that things will change and not always be the same. Thats something I really need to know right now because it seems like most of what happens is the same stuff with different people.

Or some of the same stuff with the same people. Repetitive cycling, blah blah. Personally I’m tired of the crap and the games, tired of acting like kids, tired of everything. I wish everyone would just live up to their minds full potential and quit acting like tools. Because really whats fulfilling about pretending we’re idiots? and acting like being negative and pessimistic about everything is really the way to go?

Bad stuff happens, sure. Sometimes luck seems horrible but should we really keep being negative because of that?

No, things change if you’re willing to let them.

I feel like it’s happening again. Like I’m growing while everyone around me appears to be stagnant, refusing to allow themselves to grow up and/or develop. In the past month or so, there has been one person that I’ve had intelligent conversation with and this time it wasn’t HER

Speaking of her, she’s slipping away because she’s afraid. Why do our negative feelings make our decisions? We need to be running off of hope and determination. Get up off our asses and quit being so damn passive.

Now I’m starting to speak to myself as well. I’ve undoubtedly started becoming a passenger in life again. But I need to grab onto that limb that no one else is reaching for. I have to be strong and real if I expect anyone else to.

Why should anyone else drop their BS of I won’t drop my own. Once again, guess I got caught up in everyone’s negative vibes and lost myself. I can’t stand it when that happens. I feel like I failed myself.

But I understand everyone makes mistakes, it’s how we respond to them that is important. So I guess blogging tonight has done me a lot of good.

Perhaps I’ll quit being so worried and take some chances, quit being a passenger. That would be wonderful. Here’s hoping I have the strength to do it.

I know, it’s been a while.  Pretty much ages.  Not sure why I haven’t blogged exactly, just haven’t really felt up to it.  Haven’t had too much to blog about.

But now, I feel like I need to blog, because I have that feeling that I sometimes get.  That feeling where I feel absolutely positively alone.

I’m aware there are people there for me, people who care about me, and whatever.  But it’s not quite the same, there are still plenty of things that I feel like I am just simply missing.  Things that without having them, I’m not sure I can really move on, continue growing, and developing, or whatever.

Personally, I feel like my parents have failed me with their responsibility as parents.  It would be different if they treated me with a true degree of respect, however they would rather spend their time bitching and groaning.  It would be different if they actually did things for me that I couldn’t do myself, I have them do those kind of things just so there’s something they actually have to do.  So they have to think about me.

Take dear mother for example:  She cooks, she washes clothes, and…My goodness, wait, is that all?  Oh yes, and occasionally she gives me money.  What has she done for me as a parent?  I’m honestly not sure.  She hasn’t actually taught me any valuable lessons that I can recall, I honestly can’t think of anything.  at all.

Then there’s dad, a pathetic little drunk.  and he has the nerves to attempt to YELL at me, when we’ve never even had a conversation.  Not a real conversation.  I have to make myself talk to him “so he won’t feel unloved” or some bullshit mom occasionally tells me.

What have I learned from the two of them as a whole?  Don’t be a fucking coward, and don’t betray my children.  Whenever I have kids, I should actually be involved, act as though I care for them, instead of just buying them stuff or whatever.  I would have to think, the most direct affection I’ve received from either of them is when I was in the hospital.  Even then, I don’t recall either of them being extremely distraught or worried.  Basically, I can’t wait to get the hell out of here.  I honestly don’t understand why I’m still living in this house aside from the whole blah blah haven’t finished high school blah blah blah thing.  I’m not half as dependent as they would like to think I am.  I’m intelligent enouh that if I left, I would be fine.

Aside from the whole “lonliness” thing, the lack of a relationship is taking it’s toll on me.  I know, people say you don’t need a girlfriend, and generally it’s more drama than it’s worth anyways, but it’s honestly not like that for me.  I need someone I can lay with and hold, and someone that can hold me the same way if I need someone like I do now.  I know, I have a great friend who’s more than willing to do that, but it’s still not quite the same, because she has a boyfriend of her own, and even if she didn’t, we wouldn’t be together.  Then there are all those other girls, deceitful little creatures, who appear to be affectionate towards me, and have feelings towards me despite being in a relationship with some one else.  That doesn’t even make sense, not to me anyways.  I mean, it’s nice, but it really isn’t helping me.

Because those girls can’t actually take care of me either, because they’re busy with their boyfriends or whatever reason.  On top of that, I need someone with a family that’s actually willing to care for me, and give me real support.  I’m willing to have people see how weak I truly am if I just had people to take care of me.  It kills me being as alone as I’ve felt recently.  That’s why I try to get out so much, stay away from this bedroom of mine as much as possible, spend time with other people as much as possible, just so I don’t really get a chance to think.Because when I do, that’s when everything falls apart.

When I realize that most of the time I spend is me simply lying to myself, pretending to be more comfortable with things than I actually am.  I would sell my soul to not feel the way I’ve been feeling as of late, I really would.

But on the brighter things, hopefully I’ll have a job soon, I’ll keep you guys updated on that shortly. Meanwhile, I’m out of here, basically, something happened, made me very upset, and I wanted to get out of the house, but didn’t have enough composure to leave just yet, but now I’m feeling fine so I’m going to go to my happy place and read.

Well, your favorite poster *cough cough* has been getting himself into some trouble as of late.  Nothing extremely unusual or out of character, but this time, in a way I feel like I messed up (or is that because I got caught?)

Really, I don’t care what’s going on with me, it’s the other parties involved that I’m actually concerned for.  Basically, a girl and I had a little incident, and the girl had a boyfriend. Nothing too extreme, we just kinda kissed, right?

Truth is, I forgot she had a boyfriend, because she didn’t act like it.  My only objection to kissing her was that we weren’t dating.  But in case no one’s been paying attention, I haven’t been in many relationships since I moved here, mainly because they generally end up being filled with secrets, hiding stuff, etc.  and I’m not very into that, even though it’s the same thing if we’re not techincally dating.

So I kissed her anyways.  Wish I would have listened to that side of my mind.  That was about a week ago, now, you can call me a bad person for kissing someone’s girlfriend, I’m not the best person in the world I know that.  But I didn’t even remember they were dating.  So, yesterday, she tells him and he’s angry and wants to “hurt me”

I just don’t understand why, I didn’t do anything majorly wrong in my opinion.  It’s not like I kissed her just to make him angry, or to hurt him, or anything like that.

Are the things we do in life not about our intentions as opposed to whatever the crazy result may be? The only thing that bothers me about all of this is that he is bothered.  I admit, if I was in his position, I would be angry too.  Probably wouldn’t want to “hurt him” though.  I’d think that my girlfriend messed up.  and depending on the status of our relationship up to that point, I’d either forgive her or let her go.  It’d be different if the guy was like a best friend or family member or something, but no, it’s just a guy I happen to know and don’t even see regularly

Definitely not proud of what I did, but was it really wrong?  I mean, I’m sincerely sorry that he was emotionally hurt because of my irresponsibility,  but hey, what else can I do?  The most I can do is be sorry, perhaps be a little more responsible (but it’s life, people mess up sometimes.)

but if he ever tries to fight me, I’m not going to fight him.  Not over a girl in high school, no way in hell.

But hey, I like the girl, she’s cute, and she’s sweet.
Just sorta wish things didn’t happen quite the way they did.

Well, when I was a freshman, I started writing a story just out of pure boredom, I did about a chapter and a half, then got writer’s block.  Guess it was because I was trying to twist reality with fantasy, something I do quite often in more ways than one.

Either way, writing it was awesome, even if the material did suck, and it was entirely spontaneous, and somewhat childish.  I haven’t gone back to read it, but I figure I’ll read it after I post it up here.  I really think that in some ways, it probably shows what was going on in my mind at that point of time.  Characters were undoubtedly based off of some people I know, with my own mental alterations of situations and what not.

If you can’t tell, this is when I was in my magical powers phase (Which I still haven’t quite grown out of, I’m telling you there’s something magical about me, I just don’t know what yet)

Anyways, it’s part of my identity so I figured I’d put it out there

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Chapter One

The Bringer of Good News

It had been an ordinary day in the city of Gadsden, Alabama. Just as usual, nothing amazingly extra-ordinary had happened, but what was to be expected? It was Gadsden after all. The city could be very much boring at times, so boring a person could just sleep all day. CRASH!! Of course, that was simply until something or another would wake the poor soul up. A teenage boy jumped up in his bed, startled more than a bit by the unsuspected sound. Slowly, his head turned around the room to a digital clock which read out 11:47. “Whoa,” The boy whispered to himself. “I’ve been sleep for like 3 hours then.” He took his right hand and ran it through the tangles of hair on his head. CRACK!! Another unusual sound, maybe this place wasn’t so boring after all. The boy got up and slowly proceeded towards his bedroom door in the dark, attempting to make as little sound as possible (which proved to be difficult with all the dirty clothes and random sheets of paper scattered here and there). A soft, slow series of thumping sounds began to increase in volume, only while decreasing in speed, but this did not stop the boy from reaching for the door knob…

Meanwhile, several miles away a similar incident was occurring in the house of a young blond. The girl sat straight up in her bed and nervously glanced around the room. It was her first time spending the night home alone, and even worse she had school in the morning. She was now much too terrified to lay back down and attempt to sleep, so she pulled her knees up to her chest and kept her eyes wide open, glancing around very slowly. Another sound came, this time from her closet. She held back a shriek and stared straight at the door, waiting for the first sign of movement. Then she got an idea, she reached her hand under her pillow and began pressing buttons, oh how she wished they were the right ones.

“DON’T STOP SUCKING ME IN, MAKING ME COME BACK TO YOU, NO ONE WILL EVER COMPARE, WILL EVER BE BETTER THAN YOU…” The song began playing and a light began to shine six feet away. “Shit…” the male muttered, quickly backing away from the door after unlocking it. He made a quick dash for the phone before running into the darkest corner of the room. A bright flash temporarily blinded the boy as he moved at the speed of light across space.

He glanced at the girl who had a finger held tightly against her lips. Then it came, another thud from the closet, followed by the scraping of several nails against the ground. Neither of the two teenagers dared speak a word, the only sounds in the room were those coming from the closet, and the soft footsteps of the boy approaching the bed to be near his best friend.

Before anything could be done, it happened. It was as though the floor of the room had been a battle field for more than a year, things were scattered everywhere by a giant gust of wind. The boy simply blinked his blue eyes at a dull flash of red as his hair was blown back. He reached out to grab his friend and make sure she didn’t fly away or anything, but the breeze was gone just as soon as it had came. The blond spoke first.

“Raine,” she started “What…The freak… Just happened?” She asked before making an attempt to fix her hair.

“I really don’t know,” Raine responded still partially in a state of shock. “Hayden, you know babe I was freaking horrified when you called, I would’ve simply answered, but I didn’t quite have time.” He started explaining the story as he climbed onto the bed with her. Ten minutes later, the two had completely forgotten about the mess left on Hayden’s bedroom floor.

“So, you heard these loud noises and they woke you up?” Hayden questioned around five minutes later.

“Yeah, that’s about right.” Raine responded thoughtfully.

“Well, basically the same thing happened to me”

“Oh really now? I take it that’s why you called then. Hoping I was awake, then you could talk to me until you stopped hearing things, right? Or if not, then I could just come check on things since I’m nice like that.”

“Gosh bud, what makes you think I wasn’t calling because I missed you?” Hayden sighed. “I haven’t talked to you all day since we got out of school, I’ve just been tired and had to do chores and haven’t got the chance to call you, I just kinda fell asleep.”

“Babe, it’s alright don’t worry about it, I didn’t call you for the very same reason, of course I still never finished any of mine, we both know I never do before 4:00.” A small smile began to tug at the corners of his mouth as he gazed into her green eyes.

“Well yeah, but now mine’s missing…” Hayden commented, finally acknowledging the mess in her room. How would she ever explain this to her parents, it would be simply impossible.

“Guess we better get to finding it then,” Raine pulled his phone out of his pocket and glanced at the time. 12:27, how time flew when you thought you ran the risk of being attacked, murdered, kidnapped, or anything under the sun for that matter, and your best friend suffered the same occurrence.

After another half hour, the two were asleep next to each other, lying on top of the covers. The whole room was spotless, just as it was before the whole thing happened. This thing though, what was it, and I were these two best friends disturbed from their original slumbers, though surely they weren’t the only ones. Were they?

~~~~~~

There she was, walking all alone, her long blond hair flowing with the gentle breath of the wind, a magical glow surrounding her body as though she was an apple, ever so lightly coated in caramel. The abnormal, yet delightful energy made her all the more tempting. She was wearing a nice blue tank-top, along with some of the most appealing soffee shorts he’d ever seen. They were gray, and appeared to have been rolled up a good bit, you could nearly see the bottom of her butt. The boy simply couldn’t resist, he walked over to her, his hands going into the pockets of his shorts. Maybe a black t-shirt wasn’t the brightest move after all, it was a hot enough day as it was, and what he was about to do was not making it any cooler.

Raine quickened his pace until he was right behind the girl. “Hayden?” He said her name, slightly nervous for one of the few times he had been in his life. She glanced back over her shoulder and stopped walking to talk to him.

“Hey bud!” she greeted him flashing one of her beautiful smiles. “What’s up?” She asked as she looked up into his face in attempt to block out a bit of the sun.

“Oh nothing really,” the boy responded with a shrug, he noticed she was looking up at him. He wanted to make eye contact, he wouldn’t make eye contact…He made eye contact. They were so beautiful, just the most perfect green he’d ever seen. He was starting to feel like a loser, he noticed he was staring at her and there was an awkward silence, Raine was beginning to sweat more, he felt as though his shirt was sticking to him when actually, he wasn’t sweating all that much, it was a hot day of course he was sweating.

“You’re awfully quiet,” Hayden commented as though she wasn’t at all surprised by it and had actually been expecting it. She was smiling, she had to have known what was coming.

“Hayden, will you go out with me?” Raine said it clearly so he wouldn’t have to repeat it a second time.

She smiled up at him and reached out to grab his hands, leaving a few seconds of silence. “Yes!” She finally exclaimed before pulling her once BFF, now BF into a tight hug.

~~~~~~

It was now 6:25 and Raine awoke with a smile on his face, he had the most interesting dream, but he knew that was just exactly what it was, a dream. Nothing of the sort would ever happen. As he recollected his senses, he found is arm wrapped around something smooth and round. Slowly, he let his eyes open and found her right there with him, his arm around her. A wide smile was spread across her face Hayden Rhea…but that was only a dream, the two were best friends, and that was all they’d ever be, and besides she had a boyfriend anyway.

He tried to pull his arm away without waking her up, but she was right on top of it. “Hayden?” He whispered quietly in attempt to wake her up. He noticed her eyelids begin to flutter apart, just the same way as a butterfly’s wings flutter as it prepares for flight.

“Mmhmm?” She gave him his attention, though she was barely awake.

“Get up, we’ve got school….” He told her in a quiet, soft tone.

“What time is it?” She asked, still not quite understanding the situation.

“I don’t know, move your head and maybe I can see” Raine replied, making it clear to her just the way things were.

“Holy freaker!” Hayden exclaimed as she hopped out of the bed, ripping Raine’s arm from around her. “What the heck do you think you’re doing?” She folded her arms across her chest and gave him a questioning look.

“I guess I fell asleep last night,” Raine responded.

“You fell asleep in my bed with me in it!” Hayden shrieked.

“I’m sorry, it was a long night, and after cleaning I didn’t quite have the energy to leave, but whatever, I’m out of here, see you at school.” Raine ended the conversation as quickly as possible, he rose from the bed and started to proceed towards Hayden’s closet. “Shoot…” he muttered as he came to a stop. Neither of the two had ventured into the closet at all during their cleaning experience, they had no idea what had occurred in there, or whether or not it was safe to enter.

“Six Forty-three,” Hayden spoke to break the silence. “See you at school.”

Raine walked back over to the bed, and forced his way under it, attempting to get into the darkest spot he possibly could. A bright flash covered his vision, and then it was gone, he was in total darkness. He turned to his right and began walking until he reached a door, he spent only a few moments searching for the knob. He exited his closet and surveyed his bedroom, all had been just as he left it, with the exception of several claw marks scattered throughout his beige carpet and his bed. Everything else, the pink ceiling, the wooden walls, the dresser, all left without a mark. Raine was now confused much more than he’d ever been in his life. He surveyed the room a second time before going over to one of the three baskets he kept his clean clothes in and pulled some out as he prepared for the day

“Let’s assume I’m always right” he read aloud, the shirt would have to do, he was too tired and confused to find another one. It was now time for a shower, Raine walked over to the door, and turned the knob, it was locked. Apparently he still hadn’t remembered that he needed to unlock it before it would open.

Twenty minutes later, Raine was sitting in the car, waiting for his little sister and his mother. Kelly was actually indeed Raine’s twin, only younger by a matter of minutes, but of course he wanted to call her little every chance he got. She, like him had blue eyes, though hers were a nice dark blue, and his were pale. A car door opened behind him, and his sister climbed in, her wavy blond hair hardly shining.

“Looks like you had a rough night, sis” Raine announced with a smirk.

“Couldn’t sleep, all kinds of crazy crashes and stuff,” Kelly informed her brother, for some reason or another, she had an air of superiority in knowledge surrounding her, this Raine could very much feel from her voice.

“So,” Kelly brought her voice down to a whisper. “Where’d you get it?” She asked curiously.

“Where’d I get what?” Raine asked, his alertness was its peak, his sister had stayed home last night when he hadn’t, that’s why she felt more knowledgeable.

“The cat,” Kelly responded simply. “The one that was breaking everything and in your room last night,” she added.

“We’ll talk about it later, mom’s coming.” A woman was walking towards the car, her own black hair going down only to her shoulders, she was shorter than her two children. She was wearing nice black heels, her shoes accented with bronze streaks here and there, causing her tan legs to become only more noticeable. Her white blouse hung just an inch below the top of her denim skirt. They were a family of three, just Raine, Kelly, and their mother. Over the course of their lives, the two children had spent very little time with their father, the parents had been divorced before they were old enough to remember, not a single memory of their dad would ever pop into their heads

Four hours later, the twins were done with their last day of school, and they were sitting along the front steps, along with Hayden, and Cindy.

Cindy was a brunette, her face covered with freckles, naturally she had brown eyes, but she chose to cover them with dark blue contacts. They were darker than Kelly’s.

“Cindy! Enjoy your last day of school?” Kelly asked, extremely cheerful that it was only noon and she still had several hours to entertain herself for the day.

“Yeah, it was pretty action-packed,” Cindy replied, reaching her hand up and moving a stray strand of hair behind her ear. “What’d you think Hayden?” She put the group’s attention on the other blond in the group, who was awkwardly sitting slightly distanced from Raine, the two were usually right next to one another to the point that you had to use a magnifying glass to find the space between them.

“Pretty good, pretty good,” the girl replied with a shrug. Raine noticed that she seemed to be pretty out of it, though he knew aside from the hour or so that she was awake, she had a full night’s sleep. He tried to avoid staring at her, but he found himself gazing at her in search of answers. Once he realized this, he quickly added to the conversation. “Well, my last day was pretty boring, no one was as easily amused as usual, so I didn’t acquire too many laughs, but other than that I guess it could be considered good. I’m just glad it’s over for a few months,” he said, letting everything go out at once.

“Mom’s here, gotta go!” Cindy jumped to her feet as she spoke, after grabbing her backpack, she quickly departed, leaving the three alone.

“I’m just going to take this as an opportunity to finish our conversation from earlier, dear brother.” Kelly said, deciding she would take the conversation into her own hands. “You weren’t home last night, so when and where did you get it?” Her eyes narrowed as she spoke, going from round blue marbles to sheets of thin blue fabric

“Kelly, I have no idea at all,” Raine responded honestly, not sure whether or not his sister would believe him. “I woke up from the noises, and then I was about to go check on things, and heard footsteps coming towards my room, then my phone rung, so I went to see what was going on.”

“So, basically you just left me there, with whatever had been making the noise, and you forgot about me?”

“No, Kelly that’s not it I was going to come back and make sure you were alright, but I–I–Fell asleep….” He admitted with a sigh, giving his sister an apologetic glance.

“It’s alright, Raine gosh I’m alive” Kelly responded with a smirk, not only did she enjoy making her brother feel bad, but she enjoyed making it obvious as well.

“So, there was a cat in my room?” Raine asked for reassurance.

“Yeah, I didn’t get a good look, but its eyes were definitely a cats, I could see them peeping out at me, and I heard a soft meow.”

“That’s…pretty awesome,” he couldn’t think of anything better to say. “Now, the hard part’s making mom let us keep it.”

“You idiot, you haven’t even seen the cat yet, how do you know you want it?”

“If it has four legs and is a cat, it’s worth keeping.” Raine said simply as attempt to end the conversation.

It had been 15 minutes sine Hayden had last spoken. Her unusual silence was really getting to both of the twins, Raine especially. “Hayden, I need to talk to you,” he said the words hesitantly at first, though he quickly gained courage. “Kelly, wait here, alright?”

“Why do I have to–“

“Shut up, just wait,”

Kelly growled, but Raine chose to ignore it and simply started walking away, hoping Hayden would follow. He went and sat down in the shade, under a large tree. After a few seconds, he heard someone sit down on his right, he glanced over to find Hayden next to him, just as far away as she’d been before on the steps.

Raine wasted no time in starting the conversation. “What’s wrong?” He asked, hoping her answer wouldn’t be what he thought it was.

“Mark and I broke up,” she announced with a sigh, her eyes were beginning to water.

“Why….when?” He was thoroughly confused, this wasn’t quite what he expected, and he didn’t expect her to be so sad about it either. The wind released a much larger breath as the two continued their conversation.

“Today at lunch, because he likes another girl he’s been seeing for four weeks, and he wanted to spend all summer with her without having to worry about me.”

“And you guys were going out for…..five weeks?” Raine pondered aloud. “I’m definitely going to have to beat him up for you, don’t worry about it, you don’t need guys babe, you’ve got your best friend here, and that’s about all you need, besides you didn’t like him that much anyways”

“I know I didn’t like him, but it’s just that he didn’t like me enough either, so he cheated on me and then left me for her,” she sighed and shuddered.

The wind released yet another suddenly large breath, before once again resuming to its normal pattern of occasional small breezes.

“Oh well babe, you don’t have to worry about it anymore, just forget about it and cheer up, you’re not nearly as cute when you’re sad” he said with a smile as he rose to his feet.

“It’s not like I’m cute anyways,” Hayden grinned and gave Raine a playful wink. “I’m freaking irresistible” she laughed and took his hands which he had extended to help her up from the ground.

“Need a piggy back ride back over there?” Raine asked, “or are you sane enough to walk, I don’t want you running in front of any cars or anything.” He looked down into her eyes, to be sure that all the tears were gone, as were all other signs of her unhappiness. They were all replaced with signs of utmost happiness, she couldn’t keep a smile off her face, and her eyes were as bright as ever.

“No, I’m way too much of a fatty for you to be carrying me around,” she playfully pushed him as her way of telling him to start walking.

“Are you saying I’m too weak to carry you?” He raised his eyebrows as he took his first few steps forward.

“I might be, if I am what are you gonna do about it, bud?”

Raine took a step back, grabbed Hayden’s shoulders, and playfully pushed her towards the street, then pulled her right back. “I just might actually let you go next time,” he playfully suggested.

A large truck passed by the two, along with the largest wind they’d felt all day,
“You know, it’s been pretty windy today,” Raine commented. “Sorry about last night, I didn’t mean to–“

“Oh shut up, it’s alright, you just fell asleep,” Hayden said with a shrug. “Sorry I was so fussy this morning, I was a bit tired” she interrupted him with her own apology.

“Well, next time you start acting like that with me, I’m totally going to beat you up,” Raine grinned and pulled Hayden into a tight hug. “Of course you know I love you though,” he added

Hayden rolled her eyes and playfully punched him on the shoulder. “Yeah, sure you do,” she walked back to the steps and retook her seat, the Caeruleus twins took a seat on either side of her. Raine being extremely close of course. After 10 minutes of conversation about nothing, Hayden’s dad finally arrived.

“See ya later Hayden!” Both twins called at once

“Bye y’all!” She waved as she got into the car.

Kelly then grabbed her brother by the arm and began dragging him down the street, towards their home.

“Kelly! What the crap are you doing?” He asked

“I’m getting you home, because I feel like going home, and don’t want to make up some random place to tell mom where you are,” she said as she let go of his arm.

“Care for a piggy back ride, little sis?” Raine offered teasingly, enjoying the opportunity to make fun of his sister for being a few minutes younger.

“You know, a piggy back ride would be great, thanks!” Kelly smirked and jumped onto her brother’s back.

Raine growled and grudgingly began the walk home, it was only 3 blocks, but it seemed like much longer while carrying Kelly.

Kelly reached over her brother’s shoulder to open the front door, and then jumped down from his back and took a step inside. He followed her in, and immediately began tickling her sides.

“There’s my revenge for making me carry you!” He informed her before quickly running up the stairs, and into his room. Raine couldn’t help but remember that his sister had told him there was a cat in here the previous night, that couldn’t be. There was no way for one to get in the house. But then again, those were human footsteps he heard approaching his door, he was sure of it. Last night, he heard human footsteps, then his phone rung, and he traveled through the shadows to see what was going on.

“Kelly!” He yelled down the stairs for his sister who quickly came running up.

“Yeah?” She stood impatiently in front of him, wondering what he could possibly want after tickling her.

“Come in here for a sec,” he pulled his sister into the room, and gazed into her eyes. “You know that little thing I can do?” He started, “You know, the one mom doesn’t know about…”

Kelly nodded her head, not quite sure whether or not her brother was simply rubbing it in that he was older and had an extraordinary ability.

“I started that when we were 12, right?” He asked

Kelly took a moment to ponder this and then nodded once again. “Yeah, so what?” She asked, preparing herself for a fight.

“Have you ever tried it?” He asked her, still looking right into her eyes.

“Yeah….” She admitted with a sigh “but, I couldn’t.”

“Is mom home?” He glanced around the room, then down at the carpet, then at the bed, all the places with claw marks.

“No, she’s not, why?” Kelly was now getting curious. CRASH!!

The two twins exchanged a look, and then slowly worked their way down the stairs. This time there was something Raine knew that Kelly didn’t, and that was the fact that if they were in danger, he wasn’t going to be able to get them both out, there wasn’t anywhere dark enough, and never had he traveled with another person anyways. There were only a handful of times that he’d done it before last night anyways, of course Kelly assumed that it was something he did regularly. The truth was it often terrified him, unless he did it without thought as he did last night. Last night marked the second round trip, but the fourth and fifth times he’d traveled that way. The first time got him out of the bathroom when the power went out, the second got him back in, and then one time he used it to get home from school. He was always afraid he’d go to the wrong place and end up somewhere odd.

The two were downstairs in time to feel the remnants of a breeze flow through the dining room. Right there, on the table, they both saw it. There was an orange cat, it simply sat there, glancing from twin to twin, its eyes were blue as well, a bright blue like Kelly’s, rather than the pale of her brother’s.

“I come here, on behalf of the League of Shadows,” the cat started speaking, just as though it were human. “I am Devan, the League’s messenger,” the cat went on, ignoring the shocked stares from the two twins. “First off, I would like to apologize for the messes I’ve made, last night, and now of course,” Devan raised a paw and pointed it towards a pile of shattered glass on the floor. “I’ve been finding it hard to travel as a cat, but I’m managing, give it some time, you’ll get used to it.” The cat went on talking, not realizing how strange it must be for the teenagers. “Anyways, it will be just a moment,” a great gust of wind came, and then there was another cat on the table, this one red.

Raine turned his head to his right to find Hayden standing right next to him. “Ok, now what’s going on?” He asked, this whole thing was getting a bit odd, even for him.

“This is my assistant, Benny,” Devan announced, gesturing a paw towards the second cat.

“We’re here on behalf of the League of Shadows, the three of you have all been chosen to come and further develop your talents during nights over this summer.

“What talents?” The two blonds said in unison, though Raine had a feeling he knew what was going on. Something about his little talent he’d used last night, but what talents did Hayden and Kelly have he wondered. He chose to answer himself. “Some kind of ability like mine, I suppose…Hayden, you can’t travel through shadows, can you?” He asked curiously. “Kelly’s tried before, so I know she can’t”

Devan chose to take the conversation back into his own hands.

“These two young ladies both have their own form of the talent, you’ll have to learn about them on your own time.”

The trio exchanged glances from one another as if waiting for someone to announce it being merely a joke. Kelly nodded her head, admitting to her talent, which she had only done once, but she figured it was her imagination. Hayden was simply bewildered, nothing at all came to mind for her when a ‘special talent’ was mentioned.

“So, at nights, Benny and I will be coming to pick you up, we’ll be moving through the shadows to our secret base in North Ontario, Canada. You’ll be attending classes for three hours a night Sunday to Thursday, from nine until midnight, and five hours a night Friday and Saturday.” Devan informed the group, before taking a pause to groom his fur. “So, we’ll be by to get you tomorrow, just thought we’d give a day’s notice, any objections?”

The group stood silent, half from shock of the talking cats, half from the shock of being told that they’d be going to Canada every night. The strange thing though, is the three all mentally agreed on one thing: That this could be the best day of their lives

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Anyone that read all of that have anything to say?  From my quick scan through it, it seems like my undying Our Lady Peace obsession stuck through in bits, such as the chapter title. If you know what Naveed means, then it’s pretty obvious.  Then there’s the last sentence and that’s paraphrasing an OLP line….and then the rest was basically life + fantasy = story.  Blah, not sure exactly how the story went, but it looks kinda weird to me.  Don’t think I could write anything much better now though.  Anyone think I should try some day?

I guess there’s not much to learn from this post, or anything I’ve posted recently, I definitely have to say that this blog has begun to be more about me, which…isn’t a bad thing.  The lack of reader input just kinda pushed me more towards using it to help myself since I didn’t know what people wanted to read or what they thought about my posts.  Either way, input still welcome!

P.S. Anyone want me to post what I did of the next chapter?

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