Thoughts of the individual

The Finish Line (or at least temporarily)

myronj906 — Wed, 28 Jul 2010 19:43:18 +0000

I am quickly approaching the end of this chapter and so far it is feeling like it will be quite the rocky ending. Things are getting messy and I can feel myself ebbing away into runner mode.

As of today, I have….23 days until move in, assuming both that my math is correct and that there are indeed 31 days in July.

23 days until I move in,
15 days left of work.
12 days until the friends start school. Particularly a special friend.

Now, when we think of it in terms of days, it seems pretty long but it really isn’t. Once school starts, the school friends won’t really be able to hang out much before I leave, which pretty much leaves that 12 days. 12 days to see everyone who wants to see me/everyone I want to see before I go. That is not working out very well for me, especially since it turns out most everyone is available on the exact same night and no one is available on any other night…that or they have better things to do. Ridiculous, right?

I guess you can’t really do much to help your schedule, so I don’t actually blame anyone. The helplessness does not make it any less inconvenient though.

For the past week, the girlfriend (or rather now the ex) has been getting more distant herself. Basically, I am not even gone yet but I feel as though I might as well be to her. I actually do not think this is a conscious thing, but more of a result of her having so many other things going on. The problem with it from my view though is all that other stuff will remain here to deal with. I was hoping to enjoy my last month and have the time of my life, guess that is not how the picture is drawn.

Same old issues with the best friend, won’t see her again before I leave, I’m almost positive.

Really, I’m wanting to not care and be self destructive. Say forget it all, spend a lot of money, do a lot of chilling, drop into my haunted bunk. I am going to not though just because I know it is the worst option. I really just feel like retreating.

You know what? I don’t feel like anything.

See ya.

Life goes on

myronj906 — Sun, 18 Jul 2010 21:15:42 +0000

Hey there everyone,

Just felt like posting a little something since I had some time.

I have discovered a few things, one being that despite all my faith and confidence, I am terribly insecure. I guess I just always need reassurance even though I also feel that no matter what I will get by.

The next thing is Twitter, I never thought that I might legitimately enjoy it but I do. I find it a great way to he expressive. Try to wrap a whole thought or feeling into a tweet. It’s stealthy, it’s short, and it’s me. I guess it all just depends in who you are following.

I also found that I am surprisingly content with this phone, I actually do not see myself being bored with it any time soon especially since the cost to benefit ratio on any other device I am interested in is fairly low.

My girlfriend and I separated to “take a break” until we are certain of how things are going to workout. Basically we are officially not together but have not yet made a decision on the future. But yeah. I can no longer see what I am saying so I declare done.

Thanks for the read

Living on Android

myronj906 — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 02:35:22 +0000

I may have mentioned that I got a HTC Aria for my own amusement, with this nifty device we may very likely witness the return of Myron. WordPress is always at my fingertips.

I don’t know where we left off before, but I also believe it doesn’t matter. I’m going to consider this a new chapter. Here’s what’s about to happen:

August 20th, I move in to Spring Hill College which is conveniently located in Mobile, AL. Currently I intend on majoring in Journalism which i feel is the best fit for me so far .in case you did not know i am quite a fan of writing and language so I figure it will be a fairly decent fit. We can hope so anyways.

Anyways, that’s the here and now. So we are set now we know

And let us move forward

More in touch

myronj906 — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 06:40:47 +0000

Literally. I got a new cell phone and it is only touch screen. The advantage is my internet on mobile works and thanks to Android I actually have multiple useful applications. What does this mean? More time for the blogging. In theory anyways. We shall try it out and see where it gets us. Hopefully I’ll catch you up soon

See you around,

Myron

Surprise

myronj906 — Thu, 20 May 2010 05:15:51 +0000

I met myself today. I was in the shower, wallowing in my pity. I guess I saw myself and how pitiful I looked and did the logical thing: laughed. I realized that I kind of like me, I have potential though it is hiding. Someday, I’ll manage to drag it up and show the world what I’m really made of

Sent using a Sony Ericsson mobile phone

Test

myronj906 — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 06:50:56 +0000

My phone hates my e mail.

Sent using a Sony Ericsson mobile phone

Roar

myronj906 — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 01:46:34 +0000

I swear this computer always crashes at the times I want it to the least. I typed up a bit of a blog post then “crash!” and I was typing in quick post so there wasn’t an auto-draft saved. Tragic.

Anyways, I’m considering my blogging every day through the month of February a success. Yes, I am aware it appears as though there were a few days I did not, but what actually happened is I attempted to blog from my cell phone and it would appear that due to some crazy mumbo jumbo, my phone found it appropriate to simply refuse to upload the content. Now it’s just kinda gone (or rather I’m lazy)

Either way, it doesn’t matter much because this is all about me after all. I’d forgotten how great of a place this can be to just come and rant ferociously. Instead I’ve been keeping things in a bit and being more self-contained.

So I want to start by saying I’m being terribly haunted by a couple ghosts of my past. They’re popping up in my dreams pretty frequently and I can’t stand it. No one I ever really did anything to, but people that decided they didn’t want me around. So in short, people that hurt me. Yet there they are in my dreams, it’s pretty terrible.

But whatever, you get used to it.

Gotta go, I’m hungry and it’s time to go home. Ciao.

We are all the same

myronj906 — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 04:33:48 +0000

I’d never thought of how true that really was. When you trim it down, to the most basic level there’s not much a difference between one guy and the next.

So why ever hate? On the otherside, why ever love? I guess they make us feel good and or strong.

I just wish I could have the meaning of life written and spelled out for me. Give me a path to follow, not all these choices.

I don’t know, today I feel…defeated.

Not enough

myronj906 — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 05:55:36 +0000

You know, looking back at my cover of Not Enough, I’m actually proud of it. Considering I can’t play keyboard very well, and learned everything go a day. It ended up sounding nice.

I hope to carry on with that sort of effect in most if not all of my music, but also in every area of life. If i’m lacking the ability to do or handle something the “best” way possible, I would like to be able to adapt and make up for it for the ultimate goal of achievement

I feel sick

myronj906 — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 05:00:07 +0000

So I have pretty much nothing to say. Especially with this headache. I spent the day recording my cover of Not Enough. Took me an eternity, but I felt it was worth it