I met this guy

I met this guy recently, he has a wicked tendency to upset me. Every time I have an opinion, he tries to second guess me. I think I might take him down, knock his silly head into the floor. However I’m sure he’d get right back up, I’d never win if we kept score. The problem is the more I think, the more I know the truth. The simple truth that the guy who upsets me the most in this world is myself.

I feel that there should be some central unity, but it’s missing. Most times, I feel like my life is made up of all of these different people and never have I met an enemy so hurtful to me than myself. I look back over the years and find it hard to see how anyone, myself included has put up with half of what I am.

I’m pretty sure I go back and forth between overconfidence and ineptitude more times than I bathe in a week. Alright, so maybe not quite that often. I can just never pin down a me. Seems like I’m ever changing. Does that mean I’m fake? or just that I’m confused? I’m guessing it’s more of a confused than anything. I just wish I could figure out why nothing sticks. I feel I’m afraid to explore. I’ve become stuck with the norms, maybe I need to get back into another attempt at changing that. I was away from the form of myself I was unhappy with for quite some time. Then things popped up, and next thing I know, I’m back where I began. I guess it shows that once a person reaches their goals, they’re a lot more likely to stop trying. Oh no, not me. I’ve got a challenge to answer. That challenge is moi.

Let’s see how that turns out.

Ciao.

P.S. Lots of headaches lately…am I dying?

Haven’t been around much

Sorry I haven’t been around, I’ve got a bit of a problem. It’s one of those things, kind of like a pet. Just kind of follows you around and gets all up in your business. So, I don’t like my blogging interupted. Or my solitude as a whole interupted really.

I think you should give me some room
I think you should leave me alone
It should be clear
I don’t want you here
That’s why I whip out my phone

Text text text to whoever
text text text to anyone
just to get you away
just to get you to leave
So I can have space
I need space to breathe

Ok, so maybe my stalker isn’t quite to that extent of bad. But it’s really a nuissance like a little kid that follows you around everywhere. Sooner or later I’ll figure out how to handle it. Perhaps I’ll just have to post from my phone. But that doesn’t do so well for things like The Adventures of Library Boy. Mainly because writing usually requires a recap for me.

Anyways, I’m out for now. Just wanted to make an update. Ciao.

Enter worst day ever

Well, it’s another birthday. This time the number’s 18. Surely this can’t be a good thing. Not if the rest of the weekend’s any indication. But hey, I won’t write this one off just yet. We’ll have to see

Fiction and television

Fiction and television are ruining our minds. They’re doing crazy things like making people use their imaginations and taking them away from the monotony of day to day life. That’s positively absurd! I’m just saying.

Really though, it’s a good thing and I know this. But then you have those people that just can’t draw the line between reality and the fictional material they’ve been exposed to.

Unfortunately, not everything’s a story book and you can’t just be whatever character you want.

Unless of course, you’re me…in which case you can do anything. (True story….don’t bother correcting me)

But this disconnection between reality and the things you see on television often leads to problems. Like not being able to find yourself. Not knowing what’s really you. It’s just too much outside influence, sometimes you need to sit around, away from the media, without things constantly attacking that mind of yours, cleverly crafted to tug at your emotions. These things are machines made with the attention of ripping into your mind. Don’t let them win, or else you’re a robot yourself.

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Never so empty.

In all the times I’ve been here, I don’t think I’ve experienced a time where there was not a single person in the computer lab, especially for 10+ minutes. It’s almost scary. In fact, I don’t know what to do with myself now. I’m not feeling all that creative for a post.

In fact, I tihnk I’m mostly just tired. Definitely looking forward to tomorrow though, when I get to spend some time with miss Christina. Just because it’ll be much less monotomous than everything else this week and I miss her. Maybe I’ll force myself to type something useful up or write something, but for now I’ll just go e-shop. See ya.

The Adventures of Library Boy #1

It was one of those mornings where you just know you’re going to get sick, catch a cold or something before the day’s over. It was freezing outside, it rained the night before, and the ground was actually still a little wet. However, that didn’t stop William from deciding he go to the public library.

Peace, quiet, calm, and most importantly a place to think and an area of intellect. Those were some of the many benefits of being at a library. Sounded like a pretty pleasant place, and a much needed retreat for William. So he decided it would be a much better alternative to more tedious things such as school.

So he got in his car, the most beautiful Scion xB you will ever see in your life time. Or he thought so at least, no one else seemed to agree. Not that it mattered, it was his sweet ride, and if no one else wanted to get into it. It wasn’t hurting him. He turned the corner and immediately slammed on his breaks. He didn’t have a library card! In fact, William had never even been to the library. However, he knew what he had seen on TV, and that had to be true for television is all-knowing. It’s probably a scientifically proven fact.

Determined to get the most out of his library experience, William vowed to himself that he would get a card today, even if he had to die trying. Easy commitment, no one ever dies trying to get a library card. After a few more turns and wasted minutes driving, he finally found himself at the library.

Not just any library, but the Eposomy Public Library. He gasped in shock as he absorbed his surroundings. The building was huge, and was that….yes…it was. The most amazing graffiti he had ever seen in his life. It even SAID amazing.

The best part was that wasn’t even all of it, just what was surrounding the massive wooden doors. This place already sounded like home. Relaxing, quiet, and peaceful. So much space just waiting to be claimed. William hopped out of the car and took off at a run towards the building.

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What will happen next?! Stay tuned for part 2. WHOOOOOOOOSHHHH!!!

Sorry guys, sometimes I get bored and just need to write. I think this will end up being basically about nothing productive, but something to keep my mind going whenever I’m free. Wish me luck, hope you all care enough to stick around and read. I tried to include some pretty pictures!

Dear diary #1

Dear diary,

Today I came across another male with surprisingly lengthy fingernails. I mentally filed this under oddities. I briefly pondered pouncing and mauling him with my man claws but I decided I’d wait and bide my time for this battle must carefully be fought.

Oh, but I shall win it.

*proceeds to sharpen man claws with a patient grin*

Nice well balanced meal

Nice well balanced meal

Call it what you will here

The challenge in tihs is going to be rebuilding the habit. It’s something I enjoy doing though, so that’s good. Also need to get back into the mindset. I think this is going to be the month for rebuilding, that’s a good thing. The mallibrary’s done with, we’re back to pure GPL and I like that. I’m ready to step up a notch in responsibility and work ethic. Not just in the workplace, in all areas.

I’m taking life and making it mine instead of the other way around. I’m quite a fan of this personally. No one should ever feel that they are unable to help themselves and stuck in whatever situation. We all have the power to do something major.

Well, maybe you don’t. But I most certainly do.

Subject change!

Being back in the lab is pretty different. That’s where all the real personalities are, it’s always quite an adventure. Speaking of adventure, I went out of my way to talk to a stranger today. I’m proud of myself. I’m amazed at how much better I’ve gotten about all of this.

Anyways, gotta go sorry. Ciao! Hopefully I’ll get something up later.

Bit of reflection

How I ever left this is beyond me. As far as blogging goes, it’s the single most streamlined system I’ve ever experienced. As well as the most visually appealing.

Not only that, but it’s my home. The place where I began developing me. I even got feedback around here. WordPress certainly knows what they’re doing. All of this reminds me of a time that seems like such a past life now.

Something more personal soon I hope, but for now just sleep. Good night.